Tear Dryer

mikeschultz on Sun Mar 04 2012, 08:02

For years now, I’ve wanted to take my life,
But I lack strength to thwart my will to live.
I pray instead that providence take me,
Suddenly, without realization,
Or so slowly, lingeringly painful,
A marked continuation of my Hell.

To what end should we strive so very hard?
What goal makes our living worth the effort?

If I could but see a glimpse of the end,
Perhaps I won’t be driven to meet it,
And for all I bemoan my lack of strength,
I just might find I have the strength to live,
After all. Though I bend my back in sorrow,
I lift tearful eyes toward Heaven to dry.

Michael Schultz © March 4, 2012 (0741)

Lucie on Mon Mar 05 2012, 02:48

a desperate cry. very well written. well done.

jinettyx on Mon Mar 05 2012, 08:08

It's incredibly sad to want to take ones own life......such a deep poem Mike, very well written with trepidation and turmoil in verse. Like a Star @ heaven

mikeschultz on Tue Mar 06 2012, 06:27

Thanks to you all. Sometimes I feel jolly, but most often not, and sometimes I'm downright miserable in my own skin. Ah, but such is my life. I thank you all for reading and for your heartening comments. Mike

BC Williams on Wed Mar 07 2012, 16:32

Hey Mike, I've had these very same thoughts. Probably not for the same reasons as you, but none-the-less, all thoughts of suicide are a cry of hopelessness from deep within.

I understand your health situation can definately lend itself to such thoughts. You know that too. Writing, for many (including myself) is sort of a popoff valve. I encourage you, knowing the articulation is a help, not a hindrence.

You have a lot to live for, you know. And when the Good Lord knows the time is right, it will be right, and in His time.

A bit about dark poetry I found at another site:

Curative Effects "The psychological benefits of writing Dark Poetry are substantial. The fact that you can share a little piece of your soul with another person just by writing is miraculous. Even the simple act of describing something that is bothering you in a new way can give you a whole new perspective, and help you find new ways to handle it. Above all, having someone else actually understand you at such a deep level makes you realize you're not so alone in the world after all."

mikeschultz on Thu Mar 08 2012, 09:19

And a heartfelt Amen, Sister. Thank you. Your words are well taken. Thank you for caring to share. Thanks, Bev.

And Pee Wee, thank you for allowing this poem. I will try not submit any such dark poems in the future, unless of course the darkness serves a purpose for the poem and is resolved to light, as with this one. As for bad language - Heaven forbid. Thanks for the "gentle reminder". doh

Mike

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